notgemma:

notgemma:

I never knew what true sadness was until I had to care for my sick mum. You have to watch them suffer. Each day is a serious struggle. The constart tearing up in her eyes because she thinks she s a burden, because she’s in pain.

I would never wish it upon anyone. This is the saddest time of my life and I don’t have anyone.

At what point do I stop bottling it up?

I’m in constart fear that this won’t work.

It’s the third time, third time of trying to get rid of this cancer. What if it doesn’t work? I can’t lose my best friend. I just can’t.

Don’t take family for granted.

And there it is folks. My fears became a reality. She’s dying

she died last month. cancer is the worst

What if

There isn’t enough time

To give her what she deserves

Do you think

If I begged the sky hard enough

My mother’s soul

Would return to me as my daughter

So I can give her

The comfort she gave me

My whole life

coral:

So I cry as I hold you for the last time in this life.

(via gosh)

notgemma:

I never knew what true sadness was until I had to care for my sick mum. You have to watch them suffer. Each day is a serious struggle. The constart tearing up in her eyes because she thinks she s a burden, because she’s in pain.

I would never wish it upon anyone. This is the saddest time of my life and I don’t have anyone.

At what point do I stop bottling it up?

I’m in constart fear that this won’t work.

It’s the third time, third time of trying to get rid of this cancer. What if it doesn’t work? I can’t lose my best friend. I just can’t.

Don’t take family for granted.

And there it is folks. My fears became a reality. She’s dying

(via notgemma)

I could never imagine what it would be like to lose my mum

Now that it has become a reality

It’s absolutely heart breaking

I’m not ready

notgemma:

I just want someone to want me and I’m not just saying that because I want a boyfriend or something because I don’t but I just want to fucking feel important to at least one person and have them put me first and always wonder what I’m doing and get worried when I don’t text back and just fucking surprise me with shit and take me on random trips In the middle of the night and fulfil my needs and fuck I’m just so fucking over being so worthless in this world

queerlysad:

I know not many people will see this. Personal.

notgemma:

I never knew what true sadness was until I had to care for my sick mum. You have to watch them suffer. Each day is a serious struggle. The constart tearing up in her eyes because she thinks she s a burden, because she’s in pain.

I would never wish it upon anyone. This is the saddest time of my life and I don’t have anyone.

At what point do I stop bottling it up?

I’m in constart fear that this won’t work.

It’s the third time, third time of trying to get rid of this cancer. What if it doesn’t work? I can’t lose my best friend. I just can’t.

Don’t take family for granted.

You know how sometimes someone asks you if ur ok and your able to say yeh I’m fine and some days they ask u and u just break down n cry cause ya just can’t lie today yeh that’s me